This mythic memoir is about Sam's midlife transformation, beginning with the painful death of his sixteen-year marriage. A month after separating from his wife, he feels "the impulse to jump" to his death from a five-story building. But instead of literally suiciding, Sam commits a symbolic suicide-an egocide. His ego-identity is obliterated, as he digs into his soul and confronts his dependency and anger problems.

Sam frames his spiritual journey in the terminology of Jungian psychology and with the images, ideas, and symbols of the Christian myth. He opens himself to being radically transformed by the unconscious-his soul and the Self. Within the fertile womb of his soul, he discovers some of the "fruits of the feminine." Sam realizes his experience has been an inward journey toward the Self, a process of self-realization. Ultimately, he arrives on the shore of the Infinite Mystery.

In this spiritual memoir, Sam shares his spiritual experiences, personal insights and professional conclusions from a career as a therapist and a lifetime as a man. In sharing his insights into his struggles, Sam addresses questions that most men-and many women-struggle with.

The questions Sam explores include:

- Does psychological suffering have a purpose?

- How are spirituality and sexuality related?

- Why are men so angry?

- What is romantic love?

- What is the soul?

- How do you unearth who you truly are?