I am supposed to be a college student who focuses on school and only school but he... I want him... even though he is older than me... even if he is a police officer... Even when I know there wouldn't be any time for me and it's a sin to fall for a man older than me, I want him even if it's wrong. Is this even love or lust? I don't even know now. I know my family wouldn't accept him because of his age and the fact he isn't Hmong but I want him... I want you Myeong...
I should have stayed away from her. It's a sin to ever catch feelings for someone ten years younger than me. I should be forcing on my duty but I want her. I should be going on dates who are Korean like me, but still... It's the way she smiles at me, it's the way her lips look so sweet to kiss and taste for myself. I can't fall for her... she is too young, too sweet and I'm afraid I will get hurt. I know my mom will hate her because she is Hmong and not Korean. Maybe just maybe I want her even more because of this sin... I slowly need you, Esmeralda...